Everyday Life · · 4 min read
What I Noticed When the Fear of Looking Silly Showed Up
I nearly didn't film this.
Not because skipping is difficult.
Because as soon as I thought about recording myself, a stream of thoughts appeared.
"What if I look silly?" "What if people in the gym are watching?" "What if someone laughs?" "What if I post it and people judge me?"
Then I started skipping…
and immediately messed up.
Three times.
The interesting part wasn't the mistakes.
It was noticing everything happening inside while I was making them.
The thoughts were there. The uncomfortable feelings were there. The urge to stop filming was there.
But once I noticed them, I didn't have to automatically follow them.
I could let them be there…
and keep skipping.
I'm starting to see this happens in more places than the gym.
Speaking up. Starting something new. Posting online. Having a difficult conversation. Taking a chance on something that matters.
The thoughts arrive. The feelings arrive.
And sometimes, right in the middle of them…
there's a small moment where they can be noticed.
Notice it… don't feed it.